Dad and Bien

New "ME"

I'm filled with joy and peace in my heart.  The past articles posted here were not so nice and this one became a "hateblog".  I've deleted those articles and some were posted privately .

I am now going to start to write again here but this time with so much HOPE and HappY Thoughts.

Lately, I've been in a lot of pain but God send me His angels to survived.  

My family, my friends and my faith keeps me going. 

It is just one day when I forgive those who pained me and I said sorry to those I've wronged that  I feel better and happy. 

Being a fighter is so tiring. There are times when u have to stop, think and reflect. We may not win the battle but knowing that verbally we disciplined our own mouth is more than winning. 

Never Ending

The love they shared will never end.
I love you both!

Hate Notebook

Para akong baliw kapag galit. Sumusugod at di nag-iisip. To lessen the evil in me I need something where I can unload my emotions. Gym. Jogging. Hunger. Ulcer. All were not enough to satiate me. Para masatisfy gumawa ako ng hate notebook where I can unload all my hatred. Kelangan eh di kasi ako makapag-isip ng mabuti kapag galit.

Nakunan

Yung baby project namin. Nawala.
Nagbibiyahe ako nun pa-davao eh para mapagbigyan lang ang luho ni Madam at matuwa naman si King Philips.
Na -stress yata kaya pag-uwi ng gensan dinugo. Yung baby project di pinahintulutan ng panahon. At sa tuwing naiisip ko ang pangyayaring ito, hindi ko alam kung ako ba ay matutuwa o malulungkot.
Kapag kasi natuloy yung ipinagbubuntis ko at me emotional problem akung pinagdadaanan ay lalong mas mahirap. Parang dejavu lang nung pinag bubuntis ko ang panganay ko.
Hahay life... buti sana kung me lovelife.

My heart's a virgin!

All he do for us is much appreciated. Nakaka-high siyang mag-lOve!. When I get mad he makes sure to cool me down. Sasabihin nyang "Uyy... wag iyak langga-langa ko. Hays~ He is the only person who see who I am ~ yung pinaka-pangit kong ugali pero I would still feel his love. Our attitude may not match in some ways yet my respect for this person I married grows more everyday.

My job as a wife is to go and adjust with him kasabay ng mga pagbabagong nangyayari at mangyayari pa sa aming buhay. I don't know if I'm doing my best as his wife, friend and lifetime partner pero sigurado naman akong I make him happy. Kami ni Bien.

Kaninang umaga was his flight to Manila and soon next week his flight to Scotland. I was with him in the airport and so was Bien, my uncle who drove the car, my aunt and Lean. For the past days we've been spending our nights crying and hugging na para bang mauubusan kami ng bukas. I thought we'd shed enough tears pero hindi pala enough. Umaagas talaga ang mga nagababaga kong luha.

We hugged when it was already time to check inside. He kissed me and my son. Tapos ayun na, he was walking inside and while doing it palingun-lingon sa amin si Dad. I wanna cry again pero dapat ang asta ko ~my heart is a stone!~ and so I was smiling pa to him habang sumensenyas na "Okey, go na inside Daddy." He smiled back at sinabing ~ "six months Mommy, Six months, susunod kayo~ Tapos I saw him na pinupunasan ng panyo ang mga mata. Di ko na kinaya, tumalikod na ako at umiyak. Pati yata lalamunan ko merong nakabara. Na-mi-miss ko na kaagad si Dad. When the plane departed I felt my heart is tearing literally. I just can't described the pain. No adjectives would fit. Para bang my heart's a virgin. Iyong parang ngayon lang nasaktan.

A gift from Edith

Thank you Dith for ur gifts. I love the mugs and I'm using them na every day!

Careless

Sometimes I really am so careless in small details. Like this~ I was overwhelmed pa naman when I saw some books of heart Yngrid. It's actually Book 1 and Book 2. Dahil nga siguro I've been thinking of many things at that time dalawang book two na books ang nabili ko instead of buying the book one and two. Ang ending, pagsisisi.
Sa inis ko lang~

Connie Mason

I got her name from my other house named BOOKWORM (the homepage where romanticos like me stays). I had four books of Connie Mason given to me by my Mom during my birth-month this year and finally I am now reading the books this week. One more book to go na lang then I will send it to Jayvee na (madami na akong utang sa babaye). Back to CMASON~ I was very intimate with her novels kasi nga lately I'm IN for Historical Romances. Natutuwa ako.

Aside from Nora Roberts and Sandra Hill, Connie fulfills me. Reading her books were like reading a tagalog novels. Yun nga ang sabi ko, very easy to digest and I simply love each plots and sub-plots of the story. Mababaw lang naman kasi nga lovestory pero kinikilig ako. I simply like every mason twist. Hayz, makabayot! Love it gyud!

look here!

In a closer view my my tummy looks like this. I don't know if it's halata na but here's WITCHY...... tadaaaa!!!!!! (feeling artista. 'langhiya, confirmed na self-adik!)

I'd like to thank Jayvee for the one I'm wearing in the pix. Very colorful. I feel young tuloy. Though it's not my usual color but I love wearing it these days.

Bading... salamat. Langga gyud teka~

Kim Nam-gil

He dominates my heart.
I will tell more more after my bonding with hubby.
Basta, I love him. Wala ng Andy Garcia sa buhay ko.